Sundry Places

The Mermaid

by Alfred Lord Tennyson

I.

Who would be
A mermaid fair,
Singing alone,
Combing her hair
Under the sea,
In a golden curl
With a comb of pearl,
On a throne?

II.

I would be a mermaid fair;
I would sing to myself the whole of the day;
With a comb of pearl I would comb my hair;
And still as I comb’d I would sing and say,
Who is it loves me? who loves not me?
I would comb my hair till my ringlets would fall
Low adown, low adown,
From under my starry sea-bud crown
Low adown and around,
And I should look like a fountain of gold
Springing alone
With a shrill inner sound,
Over the throne
In the midst of the hall;
Till that great sea-snake under the sea
From his coiled sleeps in the central deeps
Would slowly trail himself sevenfold
Round the hall where I sate, and look in at the gate
With his large calm eyes for the love of me.
And all the mermen under the sea
Would feel their immortality
Die in their hearts for the love of me.

III.

But at night I would wander away, away,
I would fling on each side my low-flowing locks,
And lightly vault from the throne and play
With the mermen in and out of the rocks;
We would run to and fro, and hide and seek,
On the broad sea-wolds in the crimson shells,
Whose silvery spikes are nighest the sea.
But if any came near I would call, and shriek,
And adown the steep like a wave I would leap
From the diamond-ledges that jut from the dells;
For I would not be kiss’d by all who would list,
Of the bold merry mermen under the sea;
They would sue me, and woo me, and flatter me,
In the purple twilights under the sea;
But the king of them all would carry me,
Woo me, and win me, and marry me,
In the branching jaspers under the sea;
Then all the dry pied things that be
In the hueless mosses under the sea
Would curl round my silver feet silently,
All looking up for the love of me.
And if I should carol aloud, from aloft
All things that are forked, and horned, and soft
Would lean out from the hollow sphere of the sea,
All looking down for the love of me.

Getting itchy for some h20.

Missing Southern California this morning.

a lost session from Deus ex Machina on Vimeo.

Lessons.

I have two things to share.

Firstly,the Lord is good. I am constantly amazed that even when I am not faithful, he is more than faithful. He is gracious enough to lead me and teach me despite my wandering heart. I wonder how many times I will have to revisit the same lessons. Is this it? Maybe once more? A hundred more times? A thousand? Undoubtedly it will be thousands. When in the midst of temptation, temptation to doubt Gods plan, to think He is not enough, to live selfishly, to wallow in my insecurities, and so on, I usually am defeated. I often attempt to rely on the strength of my own mind and heart. No wonder I so easily surrender. I am reading a book about women of the bible that opened my eyes to the flaws in my strategy against sin. Both Eve and Jesus were tempted by food, tempted to gratify themselves. Eve was tempted in a setting of abundance, she had multiple options of food yet ate the one forbidden. What did Eve do wrong? She did not rely on God’s word to sustain her when the serpent tempted her. Jesus, on the other hand, had not eaten in forty days. When the devil tempted him with food Jesus used the word of God as his weapon and defeated sin. He set the perfect example on how to overcome temptation. Is to be combatted with the word of God, the only thing powerful enough to rely on. Why do I not turn to Gods word immediately, overtime I am tempted? If I did this the lessons that I relearn constantly would surely become fewer.
Eventhough we have a powerful weapon to use against temptation we will still fail at times. Thanks be to God that when we do, He does not leave us. When Adam and Eve sinned, they hid from God. God did not let them be. He sought them out. I am awestruck by this. Consequences were bestowed upon Adam and Eve but ultimately God restores his fallen children.


Secondly,I work at the Boys and Girls club. I recently started working with the teens, which I assure you, is no easy task. These kids need to know God’s love desperately. They are constantly looking to be reassured in things of the world. Working with them has made me aware that there are so many places here to be a light. I feel quite inadequate, these thirteen years olds scare me to death, many of them have been suspended from school for fighting. The other day we had to restrain a girl so she would not throw a punch! This is an atmosphere that is completely foreign to me. One of the boys is a senior in high school and can’t read. How did that happen??? He is so insecure and dejected. My heart breaks for them. I took a few girls out to dinner and when I dropped them off at their houses I saw the poor conditions of their home. These experiences have forced me to reevaluate what I am investing my time in. There are so many people who are struggling and as Christians God has called us to care for the poor, to reach out to the fatherless and the widowed. I am very convicted at the lack of time I have spent serving others. Time to change that!


Thanks for reading my rambling. May the Lord bless you and keep you, may the Lord make his face shine upon you!

I am obsessed.

Right now I am mildly obsessed with five things.

1. Peonies. I love peonies. Just looking at them gives me a smile.



2. Big cities. Specifically New York and Chicago. I have been watching a TV show based in New York and I can’t get enough. The fashion, hailing cabs, sky scrapers. Take me to Manhattan. I want to roam the streets and watch the sunset behind the Empire State Building. If I can’t have New York I’ll settle for the Windy City. Chicago is breathtaking.


3. Royal blue, Fur, Red lipstick, and Chanel N0 5. I’m obsessed.

4. This commercial…
m0XszahEZv0

5. NATALIE BEASECKER

I’m home, time to get my baking on!

Making baked goods is one of my top 5 favorite pastimes. I LOVE it. Unfortunately, baking in the dorms is a hassle so it doesn’t happen often. Now that I’m in San Diego I can bake my heart out. My dad stocked up on supplies for me, he’s great. The first thing on this list was peanut butter nanaimo bars. Its a treat that only comes out during Christmas. They melt in your mouth. Sooo good, and they actually require zero baking. haha.

Peanut Butter Nanaimo Bars

Cookie:
1/2 cup unsalted butter
1/4 cup sugar
1/3 cup cocoa powder
1 large egg, beaten
1 3/4 cups graham cracker crumbs
1 cup shredded sweetened coconut


Peanut butter filling:
1/3 cup unsalted butter, unsalted
1/3 cup peanut butter
1/2 cup powdered sugar


Chocolate glaze:
1 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips
4 tablespoons unsalted butter


For the cookie: Put the butter in a heatproof medium bowl. Bring a saucepan filled with an inch or so of water to a very slow simmer over medium-low heat. Set the bowl over, but not touching, the water. Once the butter is melted, add the sugar and cocoa, and stir to combine. Add the egg and cook, stirring constantly with a whisk, until warm to the touch and slightly thickened (it should be about the consistency of hot fudge), about 4 minutes. Remove from the heat and stir in graham crumbs, coconut and nuts. Press the dough firmly into the prepared pan.


For the filling: Beat the butter, peanut butter and confectioners’ sugar together in a medium bowl with an electric mixer until light. Spread over the cookie and freeze while you make the chocolate glaze.

For the glaze: Put the chocolate and butter in a medium heatproof bowl, and set over the barely simmering water. Stir occasionally until melted and smooth. Remove from the heat and let cool slightly. When cool but still runny, pour the chocolate layer over the chilled peanut butter layer and smooth out. Freeze 30 minutes.

To serve, remove from the freezer and let sit at room temperature for 5 minutes. Pull out of the pan using the foil flaps and transfer to a cutting board. Cut into 1-inch squares with a sharp knife. Serve cool or at room temperature.

*This doesn’t make very many so I always double it!

Christmas.

During this season of Advent I have had anything but a heart of preparation for celebrating the coming of Jesus. I am stressed about finals and a little bitter that it doesn’t “feel” like Christmas amidst the stress of finals. That’s silly of me. This week my eyes were opened to the fact that I have had the wrong thoughts about these days leading up to Christmas. Who cares if I am living in a cinderblock room, who cares if I can’t bake Christmas cookies, or have time to look at Christmas lights.

A young lady from CRU went to be with Jesus this week and I watched her grieving family clean out her room. One of my dearest friends has a family that seems to be struggling to stay together. Kid’s at my work are homeless and literally have nothing to eat. The Boys and Girls club was broken into last week and three juveniles were charged with felonies. My best friends and I fought and tore each other down this week for no reason. I’m stressed and worrisome. In light of all these things, some small and some huge, I realized in new light how much we need a Savior! That is what Christmas is. Christ came into the flesh to break our chains, to shine light on a people in darkness. The events of the past week or so have left me heavy hearted, but thanks be to God for sending the Savior of the world to bear our burdens and to set us free from the bondage of the world. I encourage you to prepare to celebrate the birth of the Messiah, who is our only hope, the ransom for our captive souls. Emmanuel, God is with us. Rejoice in that fact!

The people who walked in darkness
have seen a great light;
those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness,
on them has light shone.
You have multiplied the nation;
you have increased its joy;
they rejoice before you
as with joy at the harvest,
as they are glad when they divide the spoil.
For the yoke of his burden,
and the staff for his shoulder,
the rod of his oppressor,
you have broken as on the day of Midian.
For every boot of the tramping warrior in battle tumult
and every garment rolled in blood
will be burned as fuel for the fire.
For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given;
and the government shall be upon his shoulder,
and his name shall be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
Of the increase of his government and of peace
there will be no end,
on the throne of David and over his kingdom,
to establish it and to uphold it
with justice and with righteousness
from this time forth and forevermore.
The zeal of the LORD of hosts will do this.
Isaiah 9:2-7

What does the Lord require of us?

“What can we bring to the Lord?
What kind of offerings should we give him?
Should we bow before God
with offerings of yearling calves?
Should we offer him thousands of rams
and ten thousand rivers of olive oil?
Should we sacrifice our firstborn children
to pay for our sins?

No, O people, the Lord has told you what is good,
and this is what he requires of you:
to do what is right, to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God.”

Micah 6:6-8

Matthew Henry’s Commentary on Micah 6:6-8

Men will part with any thing rather than their sins; but they part with nothing so as to be accepted of God, unless they do part with their sins. Moral duties are commanded because they are good for man. In keeping God’s commandments there is a great reward, as well as after keeping them. God has not only made it known, but made it plain. The good which God requires of us is, not the paying a price for the pardon of sin and acceptance with God, but love to himself; and what is there unreasonable, or hard, in this? Every thought within us must be brought down, to be brought into obedience to God, if we would walk comfortably with him. We must do this as penitent sinners, in dependence on the Redeemer and his atonement. Blessed be the Lord that he is ever ready to give his grace to the humble, waiting penitent.

I am so thankful to serve such a gracious God.

READ THIS BOOK!

“Imagine a poem written with such enormous three-dimensional words that we had to invent a smaller word to reference each of the big ones; that we had to rewrite the whole thing in shorthand, smashing it into two dimensions, just to talk about it. Or don’t imagine it. Look outside. Human language is our attempt at navigating God’s language; it is us running between the lines of His epic, climbing on the vowels and building houses out of the consonants.”
― N.D. Wilson, Notes from the Tilt-A-Whirl: Wide Eyed Wonder in God’s Spoken World

I do not deserve this!

“And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross. He disarmed the rulers and authorities and put them to open shame, by triumphing over them in him.”
Colossians 2:13-16

Thank you, Lord.

Interesante.

The Unholy Pursuit of God in Moby Dick
by R.C. Sproul
It seems that every time a writer picks up a pen or turns on his word processor to compose a literary work of fiction, deep in his bosom resides the hope that somehow he will create the Great American Novel. Too late. That feat has already been accomplished and is as far out of reach for new novelists as is Joe DiMaggio’s fifty-six-game hitting streak or Pete Rose’s record of cumulative career hits for a rookie baseball player. The Great American Novel was written more than a hundred and fifty years ago by Herman Melville. This novel, the one that has been unsurpassed by any other, is Moby Dick.

My personal copy of Moby Dick is a leather-bound collector’s edition produced by Easton Press under the rubric “The Hundred Greatest Books Ever Written.”

Note that the claim here is not that Moby Dick is one of the hundred greatest books written in English, but rather that it is one of the hundred greatest books written in any language.

Its greatness may be seen not in its sometimes cumbersome literary structure or its excursions into technicalia about the nature and function of whales (cetology). No, its greatness is found in its unparalleled theological symbolism. This symbolism is sprinkled abundantly throughout the novel, particularly in the identities of certain individuals who are assigned biblical names. Among the characters are Ahab, Ishmael, and Elijah, and the names Jeroboam and Rachel (“who was seeking her lost children”) are given to two of the ships in the story.

In a personal letter to Nathaniel Hawthorne upon completing this novel, Melville said, “I have written an evil book.” What is it about the book that Melville considered evil? I think the answer to that question lies in the meaning of the central symbolic character of the novel, Moby Dick, the great white whale.

Melville experts and scholars come to different conclusions about the meaning of the great white whale. Many see this brutish animal as evil because it had inflicted great personal damage on Ahab in an earlier encounter. Ahab lost his leg, which was replaced by the bone of a lesser whale. Some argue that Moby Dick is Melville’s symbol of the incarnation of evil itself. Certainly this is the view of the whale held by Captain Ahab himself. Ahab is driven by a monomaniacal hatred for this creature, this brute that left him permanently damaged both in body and soul. He cries out, “He heaps me,” indicating the depth of the hatred and fury he feels toward this beast. Some have accepted Ahab’s view that the whale is a monstrous evil as that of Melville himself. That the whale is not a symbol of evil but the symbol of God Himself. In this interpretation, Ahab’s pursuit of the whale is not a righteous pursuit of God but natural man’s futile attempt in his hatred of God to destroy the omnipotent deity. I favor this second view. It was the view held by one of my college professors — one of the five leading Melville scholars in the world at the time I studied under him. My senior philosophy research paper in college was titled “The Existential Implications of Melville’s Moby Dick.” In that paper, which I cannot reproduce in this brief article, I tried to set forth the theological structure of the narrative.

I believe that the greatest chapter ever written in the English language is the chapter of Moby Dick titled “The Whiteness of the Whale.” Here we gain an insight into the profound symbolism that Melville employs in his novel. He explores how whiteness is used in history, in religion, and in nature. The terms he uses to describe the appearance of whiteness in these areas include elusive, ghastly, and transcendent horror, as well as sweet, honorable, and pure. All of these are descriptive terms that are symbolized in one way or another by the presence of whiteness. In this chapter Melville writes,

But not yet have we solved the incantation of this whiteness, and learned why it appeals with such power to the soul; and more strange and far more portentous—why, as we have seen, it is at once the most meaning symbol of spiritual things, nay, the very veil of the Christian’s Deity; and yet should be as it is, the intensifying agent in things the most appalling to mankind. Is it that by its indefiniteness it shadows forth the heartless voids and immensities of the universe, and thus stabs us from behind with the thought of annihilation, when beholding the white depths of the milky way? Or is it, that as in essence whiteness is not so much a colour as the visible absence of colour; and at the same time the concrete of all colours; is it for these reasons that there is such a dumb blankness, full of meaning, in a wide landscape of snows—a colourless, all-colour of atheism from which we shrink?

He then concludes the chapter with these words: “And of all these things, the albino whale was the symbol. Wonder ye then at the fiery hunt?”

If the whale embodies everything that is symbolized by whiteness — that which is terrifying; that which is pure; that which is excellent; that which is horrible and ghastly; that which is mysterious and incomprehensible — does he not embody those traits that are found in the fullness of the perfections in the being of God Himself?

Who can survive the pursuit of such a being if the pursuit is driven by hostility? Only those who have experienced the sweetness of reconciling grace can look at the overwhelming power, sovereignty, and immutability of a transcendent God and find there peace rather than a drive for vengeance. Read Moby Dick, and then read it again.

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